wednesday 19/11 - it's my papa's birthday today.. He has just turned 59. hais, going to be a senior citizen le.. BUT to me, he is still young & healthy. hehe..

had a big quarrel with Dear in the morn.. Mainly is coz of my idiotic temper which pissed him off & he really shouted at me & gave me the cold attitude.. Was quite depressed coz usually he can tolerate me temper. but hais.. it's my fault.. i thought i could look comfort in him after quarreling with my mum the whole day but who knows this pissed him off so much... nvm, later in the afternoon, everything was well again..

thursday 20/11 - hais, Dear will be leaving for Malaysia with James & Amy to help his mother out with the Pineapple tarts.. They will only be coming back on sunday.. feel really sad.. had another sort of quarrel with him in the morn again.. We were in the cab on the way to school when i just started a conversation asked him how many sets of clothes he bring. he said 3sets.. den i was like wow, so many sets.. u all playing with water ar? then i got a scolding from him le.. he shouted at me "What u think again? Just in case only what." I was going what the hell. I cannot even mentioned this mah? Coz his mother's factory everytime will have a party on festive seasons so i presume they will be playing with water.. hais.. dunno why his attitude so bad nowadays.. am i a really lousy gf?? hai hai hai..

I will miss Darling alot when he is in Malaysia.. no matter what he does or anything, i will still be by his side till the day he really chose to leave me & nt regret it.. Dear, i love u. sorry for my temper & stuffs. I just panic when i know u will not be here to look after me or accompany me when i am feeling down..