Get the fuck off if you're not interested to know about me.

It's really tough.

I still misses him despite all the things he've done.

Before you start scolding me again, pls put yourself in my shoes.

Have you ever loved someone so much you don't mind doing anything for him/her?

I know it's my fault things has turn this way & he's not worth it.

He's out enjoying myself whereas i had to suffer for everything. It's the first time he laid hands on me & it's all because of that girl. How i wish i could really give him a big tight slap but i just couldn't. I know i would hurt even more if i do that.

That's why if only there is something to make me gladly disappear from this earth, i'll sure do it.

I've been using sleep as a form of numbness but the awaking times is a real torture.

I have to put up a brave front in front of my family, only secretly crying in my room or just sitting in the rain for 2hrs.

Nobody can understand me. Everybody only wants to say i'm a stupid pathetic fool.

I really want to let go. My heart & mind has told me it's no use but my tears can't seem to stop.

If only his mum didn't so 'love' me.. Things wouldn't have turned out this way now. But i can't deny the fact i love his family too. I feel at ease & enjoy being with them, his mum, sisters, aunt, cousins. But it's also goodbye now.

Can't somebody just fast forward time. I really don't know how long i need before i get over him. Just fast forward to next year pls.